I am a kidult......

 What the fuck is wrong with me?

I can't even finish one movie.

I love movies and I love Tv series but now I can't do any of them

It's not that kind of  " I can't "  like I don't have time or I am not interested in recent movies

It's really that kind of " I can't"

I just can't sit in front of my computer and finish the whole god damn movie.

You know that feeling that you feel desperated when you can get any fun out of something that you used to enjoy.

I do ....I feel desperated because I can't enjoy movies.

I feel panic....

Everytime when that happens and I know there must be something wrong with me.

For Christ's sake.......I can't really bear any mental breakdown right now.

I am so afraid that I will forget what happiness was and how to lead a happy life.

When I can't enjoy any movie, I feel that is a sign that I already forgot part of the happy me.

Damn........It's ridiculous

And everytime that happens, I always feels angry with myself.

It's some kind of anxiety I think

Damn .........I hope I can recover from that soon.